I awoke this morning with the thought of how “His mercies are new every morning”. Why aren’t mine? Lamentations 3:21-23says This I recall to my mind, therefore I have hope. It is of the LORD’S mercies that we are not consumed because HIS compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is THY faithfulness. I mean, if God can look on me with a fresh outlook everyday knowing that at some point in the day I will probably screw up, why can’t I give myself that same break? Why can’t I give others that break? If I stepped back from all the situations I may be facing right now and really see things for what they are…they are nothing in light of who He is and I have to remind myself that what may bring tears to my eyes now won’t even matter when I stand in His presence.

So why do I war within myself? Why do I struggle trying to be what I think HE would want me to be instead of totally depending on that “mercy” everyday? Getting past sorrows, regrets and worries can be difficult for all of us but when we stop and think of all the things that we are forgiven for just in a simple day…why can’t we walk in complete forgiveness toward ourselves and others? I know that I am harder on myself that anyone else ever could be but at some point I have to learn to let the past be the past and trust Him for a great future. As for me, I choose to forgive so that I can be forgiven and I can grasp hold of that mercy that is new everyday. Really…are any of us all that perfect anyhow?

The hidden things of the heart and life will one day be revealed for what they really are and I pray that God grants me the honesty to deal with my stuff now so that I won’t be swimming in a life full of regret. I don’t know where He is taking me in this life but I know I will not allow myself to be sinking in a deep pit of despair when I know I can call on that mercy every morning.